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I'm having a weird day. I fucked up my sleep schedule again, staying up late to skype a friend. She needed to talk and I'm one of the few people she talks to, and she's dealing with a lot. And it's not like I begrudge her my time, I'm happy to help if I can. But I also know I use whatever I can to sabotage myself so I'm too tired to do anything. And as I get more tired, I start slipping down again.

It's strange. I can hear it when I talk to people; I don't sound right. I'm awkward and blunt and even know I know that, I can't think of a way to say things better. It's a fundamental disconnect; I aim too high or too low or just sideways, and I end up hitting a weird note.

Self: get up early tomorrow. Go for a walk. Clean your room. Do something. You don't have time to mess up your life again. There are still things you have to do.

Date: 2015-11-16 01:28 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] kalliel
I relate to this post a lot, and that idk, state of weirdness. <333 If you need an Accountability Friend, do feel free to comment back to this once you've gotten up, or gone for your walk, or done some cleaning. I have my pom poms ready!!


Date: 2015-11-16 07:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tekuates.livejournal.com
It's a fun mental place to be, isn't it? People ask me how I am and I just sort of stare blankly for a moment and then shrug.

Thank you so much! <3 I did actually clean my room so I'm feeling marginally better about life. Now to do some work for classes...

Date: 2015-11-16 08:00 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] kalliel
Yes!!! That's excellent! :DD There's nothing quite like a tidy, reclaimed living space. Woohoo and congratulations!!

And good luck on your class work!


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